My biggest fear with having a second child is that I would lose the bond I have with my first child. She was my first baby, my first everything. She has made me see life in such a different, simpler way. I love that she looked up to me, worked out with me, and wanted me to cuddle with her first thing in the morning and last thing at night.
I was anxious about the arrival of our second because that meant I’d have to share my time. I didn’t know how she would react. Luckily for us baby’s sleep a lot in the beginning. I am able to get up early and spend time with baby 2 and then lay her back down when my toddler wakes up. I am also incredibly grateful that my toddler absolutely loves her baby sister. She is a big help when it comes to getting bibs or blankets. She loves to hold her and watch cartoons. I had read somewhere that you don’t really share or split your love after you have another child, your ability to love just gets greater. I didn’t believe this at first, but I am experiencing it for myself firsthand this past few weeks.
It is truly amazing to me how children change your life and perspective on life. While some would argue that it is an instant change, for me the change has been gradual. There are still a lot of things I haven’t changed about myself because I believe it is important to take care of yourself first and foremost. Some things though, like taking vacations and holidays have a whole new meaning. I’ll take being late to work because I am cuddling with my daughters any day if that means it makes them happy.
I can’t wait to see what the future holds for my two girls. I am looking forward to seeing my toddler develop into an amazing big sister. I can’t wait to see my youngest go from baby to toddler over the next few years. I don’t want either of these to come too fast, but I know it is inevitable so I am going to take a step back and enjoy these next years because I don’t want to miss anything.
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