As I am nearing the end of my second and final pregnancy I can’t help but feel overly emotional about everything. On top being busy with work, still having to take care of a toddler and a household, and just plain being exhausted I feel like I haven’t had much time to prepare myself for how my life is going to change in the next couple of weeks.
The first thing I am struggling to deal with is that my first daughter won’t be the center of attention anymore. I get that she’ll always be my baby, but she’s already gone from being a baby to a sassy little toddler. Most of the time when I am home we are inseparable. That has its ups and downs, but she wants me to help her go to the bathroom or when it’s time for bed we snuggle up together in mommy’s bed. Honestly sometimes I would just like a little break, but I know she won’t be little for long. Although somewhat controversial I really enjoying co-sleeping with her. The first time she told me she loved me was when she was laying down with me. She always hugs me like 10 times before she falls asleep. I have also heard that when they get older they tend to really open up with their feelings and how their day went right before they go to sleep. Despite the judgmental looks I get I’ll stick with my choice to develop a close bond with my child.
The second thing I am also really struggling with, that I should probably just let go for right now, is how I am going to manage working with being a mom to two kids. I don’t want to sound like this entire burden is on my shoulders and I do have a husband that help out, when he can. I think we can also admit though when the kids are young it is typically the mom that bears the brunt of the burden to make sure they are taken care of. It’s just in our nature. I will admit though, despite my husband’s protests, I am looking into all of the meal home delivery programs as well as a housekeeper. I will be trying them all so check in later to see my reviews of each of them. I also hate to clean. To me paying someone to come out and take care of all the things I don’t want to just seem’s worth it.
So if you have any other tips or tricks I can use to prepare myself for baby #2 please share them with me. I am looking forward to some downtime over the next couple of months, but I don’t want to be bored like I was last time with baby 1 after a few weeks.
